alright..so again.alot's been going on..soo much to think about, and some reason i use this to somewhat 'vent'..anyways, i've been doing shit that im kind of regretting..and none of its illegal..but its bad. i need to fix it yet i dont know how. the only way i can think will have bad result..i dont want to do it..yet i dont know what else to do. last week i went to knotts scary farm.and had  a good time..busted the craziest fucking mission just to get there but it turned out good..but i ono..i somewhat regret going i guess..i dont want to explain why..but i do. so yeah..i've been trying to decide on what to do..and i think ima just go with what i think is the best for me..and everyone else..even though i know someones going to get hurt or whatever..its the best for everyone. its soo much pressure and i dont even want to think about this anymore, let alone deal with it. i want all this shit to just go away. yeah in this past week..i have said stuff that i actually meant..but even though its worth it..its not worth it at the same time..like..i ono..too much to explain.and if you know what im going through, then you'd know what i mean..hopefully..but yeah..even though i meant all the stuff i said..(to you)..i dont think it'll work..like yeah it'd be nice if it did.but its not.nd i know it..so whatevers..liek im getting pissed off nd shit..theres prolly even shit going on that i dont even know about so fuckk it..>.<..anyways..yeahh..

and schools been gay..fucking i think im getting a fail, 2 d's, 2 b's, and an A.whatevers though.i got another 10 weeks..its chill...i dont care as long as i pass this shit..but yeah.i still need to hide my report card x]..i hate school..seriously.i hate school with a passion..especially granada..but the friends i have there..that i actually talk to about the shit that i go thru everyday keep me sane. i go to school because i always need to talk to them. then im trying to get a job at target..i went in there on wed. and when i finished filling out my application they called me over to the fitting room and they told me that i can have my first interview right then and there..so i went in and had my first interview with target.everything must have went really good because after he was done asking me the questions he asked if i could stay longer and have the second interview with the manager..but i couldnt..didnt really want to..i need to wait a lil while longer before they give me the okay..i gotta make sure ima past the test..how gay..-___-..lol..i gotta fucking wait kuz of that shit..so i made a bullshit excuse and ima get the second interview this coming wed..i ono..i want the job..kuz i need the money..but i hope this shit aint whack. i mean.yeah  a  job is a job and money is money.but still.i dont want to work at some whack ass bullshit place..anyways yeah..if they say that i can work there and have me go test..i hope i pass that shit..i really do..after that last time i quit.it was my last time.so lets hope im clean..xP..

like i said..so much on my mind..nd i dont even know if anyone reads this shit..and i dont really care if people do or not.its a place for me to 'vent' and yeah..i just write in it because i feel like it..so yeah..im tired now..and i have to go think xP..fuckk..i ono wtf ima do..